My Mind Rambling...

So a week ago today my baby girl turned 5! I have to admit this was somewhat of a difficult birthday for me. Maybe its just the timing of school, soccer and everything, that I am finding myself a little overwhelmed with how quickly time truly flies! As I was driving Rylin and Lincoln to Kacia's school so we could bring treats to her class, Rylin was on her cellphone talking nonstop, having the cutest, funniest conversations! I all of a sudden had a flashback of my life when Kacia was our only noisemaker, and the funny things she would say in her little 2 year old voice, and I I wondered when did I get here? When did I become a mother of 3? It honestly feels like just a few years ago that I wandered my college campus, my only responsibilties being work and preparing for my next test or paper. Now, my time might not seem as scheduled out, some might think my life has more freedom and flexibility, and then you add in the three people that mean more to me than breath itself. Once you realize that they are counting on me for everything- from clipping nails, eating food, learning to read, to teaching them the truths about our Lord, salvation and eternity - and then I see how busy my life is, how great my responsibility is and I find myself in shock! How and when did I get old enough to be here? And how do I adequately do the work set out before me? And then I see that this is what matters in life. It's not my degree, or the condition of my home, or any of the things that in the end will fade away. But it is them- Kacia, Rylin and Lincoln. They are my mission field now, loving them, teaching them, training them, helping them to see Christ in everything, this is why I am here today. So now, I pray! I pray for patience, discernment, wisdom, strength. And I pray that maybe, if possible, life slows down just a bit, so I can truly take it all in and enjoy it!